Often I went to the movies to mess with time, to get
it off my back or keep it from staring glumly at me from across the
Is Running for Your Life is a pretty great collection of
essays, with a mix that includes some more personal, memoir-ish stuff
and some that are a bit more historically-minded, on-the-ground
reportage. I don’t think surgical focus is Michelle Orange‘s strong suit
here, nor her aim, really. The joy is in the wandering. As she says
late in the book,
Perhaps all I can offer is
the setting down of a space, one whose highest aim is that you might
roam, however elusively, within its borders.
aside, what I really, really appreciated were the regular, like,
slap-your-forehead/I-wish-I’d-written-that/I-need-to-read-that-again delights on the level of
sentence and word and image, little pivots and reveals from behind the cape. If you’re jazzed by turns of phrase, you’ll
find a lot to love here. A fun example:
Ryder’s shivering sad girl underwent a kind of
ritual sacrifice in 1999, when newcomer Angelina Jolie devoured her in
every frame of Girl, Interrupted and licked the screen. But Jolie was
quickly isolated and quarantined as an anomaly; she eventually shed the
force of her personality and slipped behind the imperial mask of her
That’s great stuff. That bit comes
from what I think is my favorite essay in the book, “The Dream (Girl) Is
Over”, which is about movie stars and bodies and mythologizing and evolving
silver screen ideals. (Film is a recurring topic in the book. I can relate.)
Movie is the shorthand that preceded talkie. But it’s the latter term that faded away.
It’s the movement that sets the form apart (Action!),
and the beauty of bright, moving bodies that transfixes.
essay, among other things, touches on the ideals we’ve offered
ourselves on the screen, from the impossibly dreamy Marilyn Monroe and
Elizabeth Taylor, to later muscular heroines like Sigourney Weaver,
Linda Hamilton, Madonna. And, yes, the Manic Pixie Dream Girl. (Oh, also
there’s this great aside on how actresses disrobing becomes an important part of the
meta-story, “explicit love scenes invariably described as ‘raw,’
‘real,’ and ‘brave.'”–cf. Girls?).
Another smart observation on how we talk about bodies:
Men queue up to log specious, self-congratulatory
elegies, ascribing vague laments for an earlier era’s voluptuousness to
the bodies of the women who inhabited it. Women, meanwhile, get lost in
arguments about the scourge of vanity sizing. But the body’s centrality
is what sets it beside the point: Marilyn Monroe’s measurements were
handed out by the same press agents hawking Theda Bara’s false
passports; I knew Elizabeth Taylor’s eighteen-inch waist size before it
matched my age. Because they look to our hourglass-starved eyes like
more generous, “normal” shapes doesn’t make it so, nor does it
retro-exempt former standards from their status as standards.
Some other favorite lines? In one essay that talks about brain scans and movie market-testing:
It’s no wonder
we have started pair-bonding with our iPhones. In device attachment
resides the old struggle between the possessor and the possessed, the
shifting sands of desire and consent. What we respond to is not the
gadget itself but its promise of some personal and highly specific
And a related earlier quote, one hazard of our awesome gadgets and the not-quite-hereness they can engender:
cultural memory is afflicted by a kind of dementia, its fragments ever
floating around us.
And a related problem:
What we call nostalgia today is too much remembering of too little.
On email’s subtle, sneaky draw:
Email opened up a kind of perpetually empty stage, an endless call for encores.
A bit from an essay on compulsive running and loneliness:
As a way of escape, distance running is the sensory negative of sexual oblivion.
From a chapter on photography:
Especially when they are held out
blindly in big crowds, the screens that have replaced the traditional
viewfinder appear to function as a kind of second subjectivity, a third
eye to cope with a world that is less often collected with any kind of
discretion than amassed in daily reality dumps. So that to raise a
camera is mostly to remind yourself: Right now I’m here; I’m here right
Reminds me of Field Notes: “I’m not writing it down to remember it later, I’m writing it down to remember it now.” A related aside:
always laughed when a Dutch friend of mine referred to “making” a
photo—a translation glitch he couldn’t keep straight. I just thought it
sounded funny, but there is something strange about the one art form we
talk about in terms of taking, not making.
In her essay reporting on the development of the DSM-5, which also touches on war and addiction, and growing up:
reach maturity any number of times—biologically, religiously, legally,
academically, socially—before the age of twenty-one, but the imputation
rarely sticks. The world will not be informed of your various arrivals,
the world informs you. […] Slowly, sometimes moment by moment, small
choices about whom and how to be beget bigger ones–shading in the
background, scaling out the continuum; striking out villains, fleshing
in the overlooked–until the story begins to tell itself, with a
fully-fledged hero at its center.
Another good line from that essay, one of my favorite observations in the book:
apparently “new” emotional and behavioral disturbances like biological
events would seem to be another evasion of a problem the 12-step program
makes plain. It feels significant that the first thing someone seeking
that program’s help does is walk into a room filled with other
So good. There’s much more range here than what my quotes might indicate. You’re likely to find something that works for you, too. Worth a read.