This week my team at work had an off-site gathering. Highlight was learning improv for a couple hours. Mark of 10 years ago would not have been so ready to fully commit. It's really cool to see and feel how much more comfortable I am in my own skin, a feeling of safety, new perspective on what counts as risky.

I also did my first escape room, which was amusing.

Lowlight was sitting down for dinner in a fancy restaurant for a couple hours. I appreciate the generosity, but… they're not for me. I find restaurants more and more tedious. Impatience? Casualization of taste?

We also had an office holiday party this week, which I skipped entirely. It made me think back to earlier in career, another period where I was fully bought-in to a role and team, and how much more time I invested in the social side of things. Spending time with out-of-towners, joining team events, etc.. I remember how I felt a little mild annoyance with the never-joiners… and now I am one. Perhaps I can take it as a sign of better boundaries and more compelling opportunities outside of work, the perks of growing older and wiser?

Art
Incredible glaze on this Qing dynasty porcelain vase. (via) I like how The British Museum can let you search by culture/period or object type.

Doubt-Forest4, 2009 acrylic painting by Dae-Won Yang. (via)

Running
Yesterday morning I ran the NYRR Frosty 5K and set a new adult-era PR of 24:07, a full minute faster than I ran the Harlem 5K back in August. I could have broken under 24 minutes, but [if I had any excuses, they'd go here], but more importantly – it was super fun! I think I enjoyed the Harlem race more for the surprise of running on streets I don't know very well. But I can't deny the boost I got from racing on a loop I've done hundreds of times. Big advantage on the climb up Battle Pass Hill – no need to get psyched out, I done it twice a week for years, it'll be over in a minute, keep pushing, harder!

Another great reason to get out of bed early on a 24º morning: sunrise on a lake.

Articles & Episodes & Twoots
Reflections on donating a kidney.

"Not everyone learns best from the top teacher out there, not everyone enjoys the writing of the most prolific blogger you know, and not everyone uses the most popular app for their problem. You don’t know who might benefit from what you offer."

Each of the critics at RogerEbert.com shared their top 10 movies of the year.

"One of my colleagues had said that the Internet is the most effective short-term, nonprescription painkiller out there."

"Tedium and boredom are both patterns of thought, not circumstance."

6 lessons I learned working at an art gallery. "It is not that I’m some grumpy person who thinks that some people are great and others aren’t, in some predetermined way—I think you can to a large extent decide which kind you want to be. But if someone else isn’t measuring up, I have no idea how to convince them to do so. So I look for people who have already decided."

A few nuggets from Things learned in 2024 from James Dillard…
- "78 percent of Christmas hits were penned before 1990"
- "Lake Superior is about the size of the state of Alabama"

…and from 52 things Tom Whitwell learned:
- "London Underground has a distinct form of mosquito, Culex pipiens f. Molestus, genetically different from above-ground mosquitos"
- "In the 2020s, over 16% of movies have colons in the title.").

"The core intuition is simply that you should be asking more questions."

"IMO one of the biggest benefits of travel is just acquiring a scaffold to hang future knowledge on. Places that had similar embeddings in my mind before I saw them (Chongqing vs Chengdu, Abu Dhabi vs Dubai, Wroclaw vs Warsaw, etc.) become extremely distinct, and future facts become much stickier."

Books
Meditations for Mortals. Finished, recommended! "Going through the world with the default belief that it’s full of people or things that need holding at bay is a self-fulfilling prophecy."

Native Nations, cont.

Build a Large Language Model from Scratch, cont.

Music
Blood Incantation, Absolute Elsewhere. I like how this album balances metal with Pink Floyd-style stadium/galaxy rock.

Beethoven, Complete Piano Trios perf. Weiss Kaplan Stumpf Trio.

E-40, My Ghetto Report Card. Exploring some of the Bay Area sound.

Reformation: Keyboard Works by William Bird, Orlando Gibbons, John Bull, & Jan Pieterszoon Sweelinck per. Mishka Rushdie Momen. "Delicate" is the word that comes to mind. Really lovely.

Galina Grigorjeva, Nature morte perf. Estonian Philharmonic Chamber Choir.

Movies
Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone. Dated effects, but I'd forgotten this thing is a couple decades old now. We spend a LOT of time showing how magical everything is. Quidditch is not interesting, never has been! The chess match also kills momentum, goes on a bit too long. I forgot that Voldemort was barely present. I appreciate the skill of the talent scouts, they did a great job finding these kids. And I appreciate the characterization through costume – e.g. Hermione with necktie sharply knotted and cinched, Harry's knotted loosely under an unbuttoned collar, Ron's untied and draped over his shirt.

Farewell, My Lovely. The line delivery felt really stilted here. Like they were reading or reciting what they'd memorized, rather than speaking. It didn't fully make the transition from the page. Fun to see young Charlotte Rampling – don't think I'd ever seen her without wrinkles, grey hair, etc..

P2. I like when horror movies play on common everyday fears, e.g. being trapped in a parking deck with a creep.

Zack Snyder's Justice League. It is a vision all its own, which is great. Surprised by how much I enjoyed it. I was expecting a movie where I'd end up half-watching while scrolling Twitter, but… I was lured int. Like a bunch of 25-minute stories strung together. We need more episodic movies! (I liked that about Furiosa, too.) And the 4:3 aspect is cool! Widescreen ≠ inherently epic. For as many epic events we see, it's a shame that our heroes merely look… deeply concerned? when someone dies. Also a funny contrast where Gal Gadot has such limited range, but Wonder Woman is very fun to watch in action scenes. I really like those Parademons henchmen, cute waspy cannon fodder (like the flying monkeys in Wizard of Oz!). Having Joe Morton as the father of Cyborg is a really great touch, seeing as how he also led to Skynet. I wish Superman would use the ice breath more.

Monkey Man. The action is bloody and frenetic. I won't pretend to understand the connection to current Indian politics, beyond the broad strokes. Hijras play a fun role in the film, and the goat Zakir Hussain is a minor but prominent character, too, so that's another good reason to watch.

TV
The X-Files, s3e24 "Talitha Cumi". I lost the plot here! Aliens, an ailing mother, The Smoking Man, Mr. X, The Bounty Hunter. All systems going… somewhere.

Cross, s1e4. My prayers from last week were answered: we got more scenes of Cross thinking through things. There's even a "he's wired in"-type moment!

Words of Wisdom
"i recommend exploring niche interests in public"

"it’s important to know at least one guy who you find really annoying but who is also very similar to you. it keeps you humble and aware"

I'm typically in the office ~5 days every week. The rare, random days when I decide to work from home are a real treat. That may be the key for me – regularity, with potential for a surprise here and there?

I was supposed to run in a race in Central Park on Saturday: an irregular event in a place I'm very familiar with. The thought of it became less and less appealing as the day grew closer. Going out of my way to do two laps I've already seen plenty of times?

So I skipped it. And did my usual Saturday morning long run (regularity), filling out my map in Brooklyn, exploring some new-to-me streets (potential surprises) on a sunny 28º morning. I'll never know what sticking to the plan would have been like, but can't say I regret my choice.

Art
"Woodland Elves VII", bone china with transfer-printing, hand-painting, and lustre glaze by Daisy Makeig-Jones.

On Brooklyn Bridge, oil on canvas by Albert Gleizes.

A Zapotec ceramic vessel in the form of a seated male figure.

A tatanua funerary mask from the New Ireland area of Papua New Guinea.

La Pythie Philippise, bas-relief terracotta by Emile-Antoine Bourdelle.

Books
Build a Large Language Model (From Scratch) by Sebastian Raschka. Part of a weekly book club at work, we'll see how far I make it.

Meditations for Mortals, cont.
Native Nations, cont.
The Path of Daggers, cont. (again!)

Articles & Episodes & Twoots
10 Rules for Students and Teachers. "Consider everything an experiment."

Bilge Ebiri's top 20 films for 2024, for now?

MGMT playing "Kids" in 2003. Clearly came a long way since the self-conscious beginners in the video, a lesson for us all.

Big-city people walk faster than they used to. (via)

"Cruise ships continue to grow: a natural experiment in what can be achieved outside the constraints that have stifled progress on dry land."

"Conversation with others often emphasizes the most well-understood elements of an idea."

I'd never thought about citation in the age of AI, until now. Chicago beats MLA?

Every UUID and a write-up on building it.

Music
Highlight of the week: Kevin Puts, Marimba Concerto, The City, & Oboe Concerto No. 2 "Moonlight" perf. Katherine Needleman, Ji Su Jung, Baltimore Symphony Orchestra cond. Marin Alsop. Marimba was my favorite instrument to play, back when I was deeper into music in high school and college. The concerto is a beautiful piece, had me falling in love again.

I continued the old-school French from last week with a couple more from Guillaume Dufay…

• Le Prince d'amours perf. Ensemble Gile Binchois.
• Choral Music perf. Cantica Symphonia.
• …and Johannes Ockeghem, Missa "De Plus en Plus"; Chansons, perf. Orlando Consort. I remember studying the mass in college. Funny feeling, that little tickle of recognition after 20 years.
• …and Guillaume de Machaut, Sacred and Secular Music perf. Ensemble Gilles Binchois. Monk chanting kinda stuff.

The Human League, Dare!. It's sad how many bands I know for one (1) great song ("Don't You Want Me"), and only many decades later do I learn they have a lot of great songs (like "Do Or Die")! A good reminder as the year wraps up and best-of lists arrive: there are treasures to find everywhere you care to look.

Lucio Battisti, Una giornata uggiosa. Italian pop recommended to me at work. Reminds me a bit of Gipsy Kings crossed with… something else I can't quite put my finger on. The guitar in "Gelosa cara" made me think of "Used Ta Be My Girl". The soft rock in "Con il nastro rosa" made me think of "Seabird".

Anne Paceo, S.H.A.M.A.N.E.S. "Reste un oiseau" is the pick here.

Movies
Monolith. A disgraced journalist-turned-podcaster goes kooky when chasing down a story. A solo performance, like The Listener and others I recommended in week 16. I'd recommend The Vast of Night for other powerful over-the-phone storytelling. Echoes of Annihilation at the climax.

Red Rooms. Along the same lines of tech-enabled perversion when chasing down a story… phew! This draws you into the most queasy, vile territory. We never directly see much violence, but we see the harm it does to people who feed on it. Our protagonist is uncomfortably lacking in affect – except a horrifying climax where she participates in an auction.

Lots of medieval allusions at play. She uses the screenname "LadyOfShallott", and has a painting of the character on the wall of her mostly-empty apartment (which is high in a tower, where she observes the darkest parts of life remotely from the web, mostly nocturnally, and comes out because she finds a male figure so compelling...). The killer's last name is "Chevalier". She drinks wine from a silver chalice, and wears a cross bottony. And there's an olde-style period instrument soundtrack, but with modern (dis)harmonies.

Really solid movie I probably can't bear to watch again. An even better movie about a woman obsessed with criminal court proceedings: Saint Omer.

Hundreds of Beavers. Made me feel alive again! Talk about a palate cleanser. A masterclass in escalation. Zany blend of animation and practical effects, Looney Tunes silliness and an improv troupe's "why not?" go-for-broke attitude. One of my favorites of this year.

TV
The X-Files, s3e23 "Wetwired". TV transmission brainwashing! A reappearance of Mr. X and the Smoking Man. Surprising impact from the scene of Scully paranoiacally tearing apart her hotel room in search of a bug – really well done.

Cross, s1e2–3. The main villain seems a little too perfect, too slick. His chaotic sidekick is more uncomfortable to watch. Props to grandma for cutting the wires. I like the scenes where we see Cross flexing is psychology expertise, drawing connections, following hunches from longtime experience – more of that, please.

Words of Wisdom
"Never listen to people who want you to enjoy fewer things."

I went back home for Thanksgiving. And cried when I left, like I usually do. At the airport, my wife asked me what I'm usually feeling in those moments. I could barely get the words out. I'm lucky to have both of my parents still around. As the years pass I recognize more and more that I'll only get so many of these visits.

I spent an hour mowing the lawn at my parents' house. It used to be a weekly chore, done reluctantly. Returning to it a couple decades later, in colder weather, it was… kinda fun? Clear purpose, fully absorbing, plenty of time for wandering thoughts. I'm glad I don't have a lawn, but it feels good to appreciate what I once dreaded.

Travel tip: keep a default packing list saved in a note somewhere. Each time you travel, make a copy of it and adjust it for the trip you're taking.

One thing Southwest Airlines gets right is how they take drink orders. They come around with a notepad and write them down, then return with drinks on a tray. I think other airlines could take a cue from this. No need to clog up the aisles with big carts (and the constant noise and chatter). Southwest's version is a more peaceful experience.

Art
An Elema standing male figure made of bark cloth, paint, and fiber.

A pair of vases by Keith Haring, ink marker on fiberglass.

Love on Front Street, mixed media paint and colleage by Adolphus Washington.

My Backyard by Torvalt Arnt Hoyer, oil on canvas.

Two men in costume and wearing masks from Huixquilucan at the fiesta of the Huehuenches, color lithograph by Carlos Mérida.

Runner at the Goal by Paul Klee, watercolor and graphite on paper.

Running
Today was my first run of the season in 20-something degree weather. Good prep for this weekend's race. As always after five days off, I felt both fresh and out of shape.

Books
Meditations for Mortals: Four Weeks to Embrace Your Limitations and Make Time for What Counts. This one is off to a good start. I loved Oliver Burkeman's previous The Antidote: Happiness for People Who Can't Stand Positive Thinking, and enjoyed Four Thousand Weeks: Time Management for Mortals, too.

Native Nations: A Millennium in North America. I thought I DNF'ed, but I got into it again! This book has me brainstorming about a road trip to see Native American sites.

Nightwing: Leaping into the Light. Dipped into this on impulse. Comics are fun on iPad/iPhone!

Batman: Urban Legends, Vol. 1. Before reading this, I took a second to catch up on Batfamily lore and wow, I have missed a ton over the last 30 years.

Articles
See Newly Discovered Nazca Drawings That Depict Llamas, Human Sacrifices and More. "A new A.I.-assisted survey published in the Proceedings of the National Academy of Sciences has found 303 additional geoglyphs in just six months." The illustrations are super cool – that hummingbird! (original paper here)

How NBA fines turn bad moments into good deeds.

Repeal the Jones Act of 1920.

Lauren Groff: "Having a really rigid artificial structure allows me freedom within that structure. Having an alarm go off and saying, “That’s the end of my creative day,” that allows you to relax into it. Having a door that closes implies that the door could be open if I chose to do that."

Music
Nubya Garcia, Odyssey. I appreciate the range and variety on this album, with some intimate jazz, some harder funkier stuff, and some louder big band. "Clarity" is a favorite – bluesy strings and jazz combo, like a mid-'40s movie soundtrack.

Tonus Peregrinus, Leonin/Perotin: Sacred Music from Notre-Dame Cathedral. Old church monk chanting stuff. It's nice!

Guillaume Dufay, Dufay: Chansons perf. Ensemble Unicorn. The music you see in movies when there are people in a castle dancing.

Chappell Roan, Good Luck, Babe!. This is the first of her songs I've heard (that I'm sure of, anyway). Good pop!

Duke Pearson, Merry Ole Soul. (via Matt Thomas, had to go and look it up!)

Mary Wells, The Definitive Collection. I like the hoarse blues in "Two Wrongs Don't Make a Right" and the softer daydreamy "What Love Has Joined Together".

TV
Three episodes of The X-Files as we sprint to the end of season three:

• s3e20 "Jose Chung's from Outer Space". A story-within-a-story approach, about how crazy people can sound when telling their tales. My least favorite episode? Odd parody, humor didn't land for me. I wonder what people were thinking when they saw it and didn't have Wikipedia to turn to to process it all?
• s3e21 "Avatar". Skinner has a succubus! We see him wounded and vulnerable. We also see how despeate Mulder is for a buddy that will believe with him. I thought this episode looked great – rich shadowy '90s legal thriller vibes.
• s3e22, "Quagmire". A lake monster in Georgia. Scully says Mulder is like Ahab, and the desire to believe is a way of preserving hope.

Over forty years on Earth and I'm still learning how to manage ebb and flow of a week. One day I went to bed grumpy and sad and tired. The next day I woke up feeling fine, normal, as if nothing had happened. Another day I woke up energized and silly and ready to take on the world, like I'd somehow caffeinated myself in my sleep. Where do these moods come from? The mystery of body chemistry.

Regardless of what follows, a sunny Sunday morning walk + yoga + waffles + nature documentary is a great way to start your week.

Art
A ceramic Tlapacoya kneeling figurine. A pocket chess set from Marcel Duchamp. A Mumuye monkey mask made of wood, raffia, and fiber.

Running
My winter running project: running every street in PLG/East Flatbush, and then every street in Park Slope. I'm running a 15k in Central Park in a couple weeks.

Articles & Episodes & Twoots
"Americans just really like thinking of themselves as “working class”, no matter how much money they earn or what degrees they have hanging on their wall." This attitude seems like a blend of "aw shucks" humble popularism and a sort of stolen valor. Seems like bad karma.

How to have a superstar career outside a superstar city. Love this: "Great work is never the default path so don’t waste your time worrying about what you’re missing out on."

"Being driven mad online is avoidable." And some reminders about how to stay sane.

"We must build routines that are not just filled, but fulfilled."

Blockchain for beginners.

"An ode and exhortation to the 70% of New Yorkers in the broad middle of city politics. This moment is yours if you will claim it." See also: You Don't Have to Feel Bad About Politics.

Books
Native Nations, continued, and Termination Shock – soon to DNF? This one is taking forever to get anywhere...

Movies
A Laundry Day. A short film from Johanna Makabi. Like a poem that lands the punch in the final words.

The Batman (2022). Didn't enjoy it as much as the first time, but it holds up pretty well. I still like the moodiness, and the steady drip drip of the detective story, but it felt a bit more flabby on this watch, and a little preachy? Cool to see how precise and sharp Zoë Kravitz' acting can be.

Gosford Park. Absolutely loved it. Gossipy upstairs/downstairs intrigue and murder mystery, constantly mocking Americans, Hollywood, buffoon cops, catty elites. Kristin Scott Thomas is a natural at snobbery. Love how it takes huge cast and makes it feel natural. You assemble the collage as you go along.

Music
More Max Richter…

• In a Landscape. Lots of flowy, melancholy cello. It's nice.
• The Leftovers: Season 1 OST. I need to get back to watching the show.

Devonté Hynes, Master Gardener OST. Love the closing song, "Space and Time", which led me to…

Mereba:

• Room for Loving.
• the "Counterfeit" single
• The Jungle Is The Only Way Out. "Stay Tru" made me think of Chloe x Halle's "Do It".

Also in rotation:

• Mary J. Blige, Gratitude. "Need You More", Jadakiss' voice is so good. "I Got Plans" has a nice throw-back feel.
• Pure Desmond, Audrey. Clean west coast jazz.
• Adam Ben Ezra, "Can't Stop Running". Really nice upright bass + percussion number.
• Cubiclor, Hardly a Day, Hardly a Night. Trancy dancy EDM stuff – "Melodies" is great.
• An excellent playlist: Dance in the Ruins: Nov 2024 mix. I'll be giving a few of these albums a proper listen later on.

TV
The X-Files, s3e19 "Hell Money". Most depressing episode yet? Rare episode where there's little in the way of supernatural events. It stays focused on beliefs, and the more generic human evil of preying on the vulnerable. I'd never heard of hell money before.

Cross, s1e1. I've only seen Morgan Freeman play Alex Cross. I like Aldis Hodge's version so far. Curious how they'll use D.C. to tell the story.

Night on Earth, s1e1. TIL there are mice that hunt scorpions.

Words of Wisdom
"Some metaphor: projects require soil to grow in, sunlight to grow toward. Your soil is not your sunlight. You need both, but they are not the same."

Yesterday I went to the Brooklyn Musem. They've had a bit of a glow-up recently, and their exhibition of Brookyn artists is a lovely way to celebrate it and they have the full collection online. The in memoriam, 2022 quilt by Clayton Okaly was a favorite for me.

While we were there, we took few minutes to sit down and sketch. I picked one at semi-random, a seated guy leaning with his elbows on a table or bar. Then little observations started adding up, things my eye wouldn't have seen if I wasn't using my hands. What else am I missing because I'm not taking enough time to see?

Art
A Yup'ik nepcetaq mask. The notes were very helpful: "In the central carving an angalkuq (shaman) stares intently through two bentwood rings, which represent layers of the universe. As mediators between worlds shamans have the ability to travel beyond the everyday realm. Feathers and wooden carvings of hands, feet, fish, and a bird radiate beyond the second, outermost ring. With hands and legs matching the tone of his face the angalkuq seems to reach across the boundaries of the world. He touches that which we cannot see, the inner life of all things."

Books
Termination Shock, continued.

Running
Picking up where I left off with the project in September, I've now run every street in Bed-Stuy. I didn't expect the wave of satisfaction that hit as I was knocking out the last few blocks. Big smiles.

Articles & Episodes & Twoots
IMG_0416, a treasure trove of iPhone → YouTube uploads.

Listen to random forest audio with Tree.fm.

"A corollary to 'you can just do things': you can just ignore things."

Don't ask to ask, just ask. "You're asking people to take responsibility. You're questioning people's confidence in their abilities. You're also unnecessarily walling other people out." (Thanks, Jara!)

"When you take an occupation that people think they know and point it in another direction, then you create a gap, or chasm. Then the viewer has to help fill that chasm. Well, that’s what art does. You have two poles; you get them to a certain point and the spark’s gonna fly."

Hollis Robbins on the "last mile" problem: "We're creating a world where AI algorithms serve the majority while human insight becomes the ultimate premium service."

"Like many pictures in my camera roll, it’s unremarkable. And yet, unlike other pictures taken that night, it conjures up for me a potent memory that’s not exactly depicted within the photo, but with a few taps I can always evoke it."

"Tourism has become value arbitrage: Invest in an undiscovered place early so you don’t have to go there when it’s overrun."

Notes on Guyana. I don't read the whole text of Lakeman's posts, but the on-the-ground photos are always interesting.

"In 31 years of age I think I’ve finally discovered the cure to depression and it’s just leaving the house at every single possible opportunity no matter how badly you don’t want to." Today is my 1349th consecutive day going outside no matter what, and can vouch that it makes a huge difference.

Movies
Civil War. An unlikely family road trip movie, but a team of (bloodthirsty?) journalists. "We don't ask. We record so other people ask." They're not heroes, they're emotionally deadened thrill-seekers, and the generational trend isn't good. Distracting to see what's obviously (to me) Atlanta filmed as NYC. (Seeing the blighted Herndon Stadium was both cool and depressing.) Just seemed a bit sloppy? Between Men, Annihilation, and Ex Machina, Alex Garland has a pretty high batting average.

Master Gardener. Really loved it, didn't expect the warmth and sentimentality, and I wasn't ready for such a hopeful ending. "I never knew what direction it was going to go." I wrote that about Paul Schrader's First Reformed – the first of his man-in-a-room trilogy – and the same applies here. Makes me want to rewatch American Gigolo.

The Grand Budapest Hotel. Second viewing (the first). I might still call it my favorite, but would be interested in a _The Darjeeling Limited_rewatch. Not a movie I love, though, and ditto for Anderson as director. I'm glad he's able to do his thing, though, and hope every director gets to be as weird and specific as they can muster.

Music
Nicolas Deep, Gata. Good pulsing work music. I like the group chanting in "Savan".

Max Richter, On the Nature of Daylight. "A Catalogue of Afternoons" is a good one to keep on loop while you putter through quiet tasks.

Mongo Santamaria, Afro Roots. So much good stuff in the percussion. I'd love to hear a version without vocals.

Sun Ra Arkestra, Baby Won't You Please Be Mine. I like the shaggy bluesy NOLA feel in the title track.

Naoki Sato 六人の嘘つきな大学生 OST. "Chaos" is a favorite – I love that whirring rise and fall in the opening minutes, like a robot breathing. Also a fan of "Betrayer", love a steady pulse that builds and builds. From the composer who brought you the soundtrack for Godzilla Minus One.

Big Gigantic, Brighter Future 2. Strip mall dance pop. I could barely finish.

Yusuf Lateef, Suite 16. Didn't care for this one, either!

TV
The X-Files, s3e18 "Teso Dos Bichos". Another edition of revenge after death x indigenous cultures… but this time through a mob of cats lol.

The Penguin, s1e1. First sample was pretty good. I like when main characters are getting squeezed from all directions. Sofia Falcone is a compelling foil. I've seen NY/NJ mob boss tough-guy characters ten million times, so I'm curious what novelty they'll bring to it.

We elected a new President on my birthday. I've gotten better gifts before, but… #WeMove!

Running
I went out for some trailrunning in Harriman State Park on Saturday morning. I wasn't really familiar with the area. What lovely surprise, though, when we ended up just a half-mile away from the Lemon Squeezer – a part of the Appalachian Trail that squeezes through some looming boulders. I passed through my first time a lifetime ago in 2007. We took a quick side trip to visit again.

I passed walked into the channel and – feeling the cold rock, hearing the scrape of backpack – the most vivid, visceral memories washed over me. Unexpectedly moving to retrace those steps. Mark v.2007 would not have predicted the details of Mark v.2024, but I think he'd be stoked.

Books
Outlander. DNF. I remember this circulating a ton when I was working at the library. Not for me!

Termination Shock. Just started, appreciate the early momentum.

Articles & Episodes & Twoots
Projects are things with steps.

"Accomplishing worthwhile things isn't just a little harder than people think; it's 10 or 20 times harder."

The Housing Twenties: New York’s Biggest Building Boom and Its Lessons for Today. "The period from the Great Depression to America’s entry into World War II (1930 to 1941) […] surpassed housing construction in the best 12 years of the 21st century (2012 to 2023)."

I fell asleep in a driverless car.

"I didn’t take animation seriously because it came easily to me. It took me a long time to realize, maybe it comes easily to me and it’s fun because I’m good at it. Maybe that’s what a talent is called, but you feel like you have to beat yourself up and do things the hard way or it doesn’t count."

A reflection on the 10th anniversary of Nightcrawler. "As our relationship with cameras and information delivery systems has evolved, the public often finds themselves a spiritual descendant of Lou or Nina, even with good intentions."

"God walks out of the room when you’re thinking about money."

An excerpt from "Any Morning" by William Stafford…

Little corners like this, pieces of Heaven left lying around, can be picked up and saved. People won't even see that you have them, they are so light and easy to hide.

Movies
The Lion King (1994). Watched as a sing-along. I tell you what: this hits way different as an adult with aging parents!

Crooklyn. Watched on the big screen at BAM. Love the hilarious chaos of a 5-kid household, and the variety of "characters" on the block, and the lively soundtrack, and the shock of travel to foreign lands (Virginia). One of my favorites of the year so far.

Music
Time for Three, Letters for the Future. New music for string trio and orchestra. The strumming and pizzicatto bits in "The Shallows" were nice – warm Americana.

Another round of comparing recordings, ft. Camille Saint-Saëns…

• Organ Symphony; Bacchanale; Danse Macabre; Carnaval des Animaux. Just now realizing that the "Aquarium" is featured heavily in in Days of Heaven!
• Symphony No. 3 / Piano Concerto No. 2. Don't think I'd heard the "Introduction and Rondo Capriccioso in A minor, Op. 28" before, nice surprise.

Samuel Siskind, Fourth Wall Ensemble, Christopher Allen, Johnathan McCullough, Awake. Lovely chamber/choral opener.

Svaneborg Kardyb, Superkilen. I like this combination of keyboards and percussion, with some electronica mixed in to expand it. I had the title track on repeat for a while.

Wolfgang Lackerschmid, Chet Baker, Ballads for Two. Trumpet + vibraphone, "Softly As a Morning Sunrise" is the highlight here.

Cobrah, Succubus. BDSM pop. Not sure I'd give it "10/10", but it was a welcome injection of novelty. Buckle up!

Molly Lewis, On the Lips. Lots of whistling and mood-setting – I like "Lounge Lizard".

TV
The X-Files, s3e17 "Pusher". Trance brainwasher! Skinner as plot point (ht Jara). Holding hands several times, Scully's concerned expressions. Russian roulette!

CSI: Miami, s7e12 "Head Case". I like all the lab work they did in this one. Eric and Calleigh need to sort it out this mess lol.

The Terror, s1e9-10. Welp, everyone died! Glad the ending of the show wasn't as Hickey-centric as I feared. Respectful appreciation of an ensemble cast. Really enjoyed the scene of finding the Northwest Passage.

Words of Wisdom
"In a cemetery once, an old one in New England, I found a strangely soothing epitaph. The name of the deceased and her dates had been scoured away by wind and rain, but there was a carving of a tree with roots and branches (a classic nineteenth-century motif) and among them the words, "She attended well and faithfully to a few worthy things." At first this seemed to me a little meager, a little stingy on the part of her survivors, but I wrote it down and have thought about it since, and now I can't imagine a more proud or satisfying legacy."

This morning I used my extra fall-back hour to do some trailrunning, and it's just a perfect way to start the week. (Some people will try to tell you that the week starts on Monday, but it does not.)

Art
Exquisite Corpse paintings by Kerry James Marshall. (via)

Coptic Tapestry with a Shepherd Milking a Goat.

A gorgeous snuffbox from ~1740s Paris, crafted from gold and mother of pearl.

Running
On Tuesday night the run club when down to a spooky Halloween house.

I used to take Sundays all or mostly off. One change I'm enjoying lately is following my Saturday long run with a short-to-medium run. Squeezing a little bit more out of tired legs, keeping it chill and exploratory.

Books
The Saltwater Frontier. The book has moved on from the more conceptual, sweeping summary material to more nitty-gritty dates-and-facts-and-stats. I've enjoyed it, but looking forward to wrapping up soon.

Florida by Lauren Groff. Just started, reserving judgement.

Articles & Episodes & Twoots
Prep for next year's Halloween viewing: 24 Hours of Horror with Robert Eggers, director of The Witch and the upcoming Nosferatu remake. Also on Letterboxd.

A collection of movie visual techniques, like dolly zooms, match cuts, and wipe transitions.

How to Make Pixel Art From an Existing Image.

"Friends, I encourage you to publish more, indirectly meaning you should write more and then share it." I like the notion that "not every gift needs a bow".

"The exact reason I recommend people learn foreign languages: smart people need the experience of being wrong."

"The bottom line is this: men do not differ significantly from women in the importance they attach to various policy issues; and their positions do not appear to have shifted much over the last two years." I find this somewhat reassuring. Vibes are powerful.

How I write code using Cursor: A review.

Movies
I Know What You Did Last Summer. Been a while since I've seen it, gets the job done. My 100th movie of the year.

Longlegs. Gross and unsettling at times, but maybe would have found it scarier in the theater? I enjoyed seeing Maika Monroe settling in as a distinctive oddball character, and Nicolas Cage is an all-timer.

The Naked City. Interesting for its snapshot of 1940s NYC neighborhoods, and a decent little procedural mystery.

Presumed Innocent. I need to watch more 80s/90s legal thrillers. Great courtroom scenes, always love when they approach the bench and hash things out. Harrison Ford has a lot of range in stillness.

Music
After hearing one of his songs at the vinyl bar, I dove into Doug Carn's soulful jazz explorations from the 1970s…

• Infant Eyes
• Spirit of the New Land
• Revelation
• Doug Carn JID005

…and from there into more jazz…

Sun Ra, Kingdom of Discipline. The organ in "Sophisticated Lady" is so good. I also liked his recent "Lights on a Satellite" single.

Ryo Fukui, Scenery. Check out "I Want to Talk About You".

Two from Alfa Mist, Antiphon and Variables

Walter Smith III, three of us are from Houston and Reuben is not.

Christian Scott aTunde Adjuah, Yesterday You Said Tomorrow. Covers "The Eraser", so that's cool!

…and eventually, the genre started to feel a little stale. Or like I'd kept taking spoonfuls without chewing. To change things up I re-visited Camille Saint-Saëns' Symphony No. 3. It hit like a truck, great stuff.

TV
The X-Files, s3e16 "Apocrypha". The black oil backstory. I like when Mulder and Scully go off on separate adventures and then team up again after swapping clues. One of the better-shot episodes, good mood.

Batman: The Animated Series, s1e31 "Dreams in Darkness". Scarecrow episode, a rare one with Batman narrating previous events, like a film noir detective.

Last weekend was Open House New York Weekend, where you can snoop around a bunch of places that you usually can't. I went to Brooklyn Army Terminal to see some oddball art and open studios.

I think I had a breakthrough on that morning adventure. Namely, getting better at managing hangry-ness. Half the battle is predicting it: when I'm on a long morning adventure, I'm going to get tired, hungry, cranky, frustrated. So I left the house prepared, and arrived home happy rather than desperate.

With my new wisdom, I implore you: carry snacks. The great enemy of your progress is unresolved tension within!

Running
I got an idea for a spiral running route one night as I was going to bed, so used that for my Saturday long run. The result GPS track, map redacted:

Wasn't sure how it would feel to run it, but it was a really neat way to revisit familiar territory.

Books
The Subtle Knife. DNF. Just couldn't stay attached.

The Saltwater Frontier: Indians and the Contest for the American Coast. Really enjoying this one, with focus on the native, English, and Dutch on the coast up here from Hudson Valley to Cape Cod. We think of colonization as a land-based thing, and underestimate the maritime powers already in place.

Articles & Episodes & Twoots
William Gibson on a radio interview with R.P. Bird in 1987. Listening to oddball radio shows late at night – one of those things I remember that my kids probably won't. (via Joanne McNeil)

"Here is a (very) nonexhaustive list of nonprofits that have helped achieve prosocial outcomes, that do not currently have enough funding to achieve their greater ambitions." Lots of good stuff out there.

Boosting Housing Affordability: Practical Suggestions for Congress and the White House. Interesting to see what opportunities are available, some direct, some bankshots.

"A lot of people don't know how government works generally, even if they're inside it. They certainly know their piece of it, and they know how to navigate the relationships. They’ll always tell you politics is relationship driven, and it certainly is. And they’re also deeply creative. It requires ingenuity to figure out how to get an agenda through the system."

We can Terraform the American West.

Movies
The Witches (1990). Fun! Anjelica Huston is such a good diva. Love the handicraft make-up and costuming. Unhinged at times, and maybe feels unsure of its target age. Enjoyed it, though, and enough so that I'd be willing to check out the remake.

Scream VI. I agree with my complaints from my first watch in May, but also my conclusion: I love this franchise. I like the darkness in our heroine, and focus on the sister relationship as they find their own way through trauma.

Music
The Smile, Cutouts. Must feel good to reset under a new name, remove the expectations of the old one. "The Slip" is so good, dark and slippery. "Eyes & Mouth" is about as funky as I've heard them, and I love how the toms are tuned so loose. The whole album just races by.

Ngô Hồng Quang, Nhìn Lại. I like the mix of old and new. The final ballad Chông Chênh Sông Hồng is lovely, as is the a cappella "Có Những Ngày".

Gonchareva, Ocean, Symphony for Electric Violin and Other Instruments in 10+ Parts. The variety of intrumentation is the best part. Not your grandfather's symphony.

Bill Evans Trio, Sunday at the Village Vanguard. I love how close this recording is, right on your ears. "My Man's Gone Now" might be my favorite here.

Bill Charlap Trio, Street of Dreams. More piano-led jazz combo. "Out of Nowhere" has such good bones, hard to go wrong.

Jupiter & Okwess, Na Kozonga. Congolese afropop/funk. Big fan of "Izabela" and Bakanda Ulu", at least before the heavy belting starts.

TV
The X-Files, s3e15 "Piper Maru". Feels good to be back on mainline conspiracy stuff. Frickin' Krychek.

CSI, s10e14. Starring Rascal Flatts? Didn't see it coming.

The Terror, s1e8. Ugh. It's the Hickey show now.

I removed Twitter from my phone last Sunday, and it's been interesting to compare before and after. I'm lucky that, compared to some, I don't seem to be as triggered by the sewage you can see there sometimes (often). But still, just as addicted as many. It keeps me hooked.

But I cut it off for a bit, and all that would-be scrolling time became much more peaceful. Go figure! Kindle on the train, RSS in those weird restless pockets that open up throughout the day, Kindle before bed. A bit of time on the laptop in the evening, but I usually don't have much appetite for that after a day of work. Compulsion replace with intention. Nights are quieter, and feel longer, and days a bit more deliberate and focused. It feels good I'm pretty sure I'll be back eventually, but enjoying this right now.

I remember I had a tough start on Monday. A bit of Sunday scaries, and bad sleep from wordy thinking + struggle to find the right temperature. Still wrestling with changes in my routine, but things are settling into place. I try to remind myself I don't need to form an opinion or change it all immediately. I let the new days settle into place, and see what I want to change when it's taken form.

Art
"Wind, Miami Beach", photo by Anastasia Samoylova.

"Woman Leaning on Her Hands", bronze by Henri Matisse.

"Pierrot with Clarinet", sculpture in plaster by Jacque Lipchitz.

Running
I think I'm finding my groove again. Back to my usual weekly mileage after a couple down weeks. Sunday afternoon jogs are proving useful to replace the weekday mornings I pulled back on. Saturday long run include a stint of the Brooklyn Waterfront Greenway I'd not done before, connecting Sunset Park and Bay Ridge/Fort Hamilton. I think I've run almost all of Brooklyn's perimeter/borders, except for a few odd miles here and there.

Books
In the Garden of Beasts: Love, Terror, and an American Family in Hitler's Berlin by Erik Larson. Ultimately really depressing! Glad I read it. The world of ambassadors and diplomats is interesting, though. I wonder what the best general history books on the Foreign Service are?

Spies: The Epic Intelligence War Between East and West by Calder Walton. The 10% of so that I read seems good, but I think my eyes were bigger than my stomach here. DNF.

The Subtle Knife, by Philip Pullman. I was going to read the The Golden Compass only to realize I read it two years ago. Need to Wikipedia that one and get this started again.

Articles & Episodes & Twoots
I’m visiting all 350 of NYC’s neighborhoods. Here’s some of what I’ve learned so far.

"The obituaries section is exclusive real estate. They don’t let boring people in."

"Politicians from the left and the right sometimes like to say that 60 percent of Americans are living paycheck to paycheck. It’s the type of statistic that can fit a variety of economic narratives. […] It’s also, more importantly, not true."

Using static websites for tiny archives.

Movies
Coraline. Pretty good! The stop-motion animation is really impressive, easy for my attention to be focus more on that than the plot. The story is unhurried and pleasingly creepy.

The Witch. I just love this movie. Third or fourth time I've seen it, and keep finding new riches. Robert Eggers is one to follow.

Music
Pharoah Sanders, Great Moments with Pharoah Sanders was my favorite album this week. Perfect music for walking through the city in the morning. Check out his "Naima" and "Soul Eyes".

Jaco Pastorius, Jaco Pastorius. Insane electric bass playing here.

Yin Yan, Mount Matsu. Some interesting electronic/south Asian surf rock?

Giuliano Sorgini, Lavoro e tempo libero. Disco! "Turbine in moto" is a good closer.

Brian Green, Impressions for Headphones. No single track was especially affecting, but useful and enveloping when taken as a whole.

Keith Jarrett, Facing You. Jazz piano as soloist. I like "Starbright".

Gustav Mahler, Symphony No. 2 "Resurrection" rec. New York Philharmonic, Leonard Bernstein. I went through a big Mahler phase a while back, maybe a decade ago now? Still love the scale and drama of it all.

TV
The X-Files, s3e14 "Grotesque". Here we have a more tormented Mulder than we usually see. A detective in too deep for his own good, like you see in Seven or Hannibal or something. But we also understand new motivations, chips on his shoulder from a career being bullied and ostracized. I like the range we get to see from Scully here – loyalty, patient, frustrated, angry, worried, commanding. Interesting that the enemy here has honor enough to help himself get caught.

The Terror, s1e7. The crew has abandoned ship for overland journey, and Mr. Hickey is outta control. Hope he doesn't take over the plot, but… I don't think I'll get my wish.

Took a few hours last Sunday evening for a couple hours of reading – phone off, devices stashed away… and a break for cookies. An ideal evening. And a different version of that this morning: a bus ride across town, a trio of lattes, and a sunny stroll back home. New rituals to make the time go slower.

Books
Shards of Honor. Setting this one aside for the moment. Lots of things happening but not building up enough.

In the Garden of Beasts: Love, Terror, and an American Family in Hitler's Berlin by Erik Larson (no relation). So far, so good. I remember reading The Devil in the White City when it came out, and being annoyed with his constant teasers and hints to close out each chapter. Still has that tic here, but it's not bothering me as much.

Articles & Episodes & Twoots
"When the whole [TikTok] feed is taken together, it’s almost digital vaudeville: a song, a short sketch, a physical feat, slapstick, animal acts and satire, one after another, in a personalized variety show on your phone."

"The Delaware Aqueduct, 85 miles end to end, is the longest tunnel in the world".

Movies
Scream (1996). Third or fourth time I've seen it? This time around I especially appreciated how scenes were blocked out, and the emphasis on how we feed on TV sensationalism.

I Saw the TV Glow. Moves in its own time, at its own pace.

Music
Elysian Spring, Glass Flowers. I like the gentle bossa nova opener "Blue Sands" into hard swing of "Richards Whistle"

Ibibio Sound Machine, Doko Mien. "Wanna Come Down" puts the hard funk in your face, and "I Will Run" is a more electro-dreamy morsel with a bit of gospel flavor.

Moses Yoofee Trio, OCEAN. I love a crispy, up-front sound in the drumkit. The title track is great with the bass noodling over a piano pedal tone at the opener, and I love the way "RICHMOND" builds and pivots halfway through.

Brandon Coleman, Resistance. Heavily vocodered pop/roller disco in the vein of Daft Punk, etc.. See "Live for Today".

TV
The Terror, s1e6. The worst carnival ever, and sunrise has never been so deflating.